Friday, April 29, 2011

Ready to relax...

Whew, these last few days have been rough. Go, go, go pretty much all day, every day. I am a tired girl!

Tuesday my husband dragged me to a parenting seminar that the FFSC (Fleet and Family Support Center) had. It didn't end up being exactly what we expected, but we were able to learn of some good resources we can use in the future, once I'm finally pregnant. But, being one of the few women in the room who was not pregnant was not fun!

Wednesday evening I took my last Femara pill. I'm very anxious about whether or not the medicine has worked, and I know I'll be a nervous wreck next week when we go to the doctor to find out if I've responded to the medicine.

I'm hoping and praying that everything turns out the way I want it to, but I'm terrified that once again, I'll just be disappointed. But, I'm going to do my best to relax and enjoy this weekend and not get too worked up! Wish me luck! :)

- Honeybee

Monday, April 25, 2011

All over the place...

I slept horribly last night. Not really sure why. Well, really, my brain just couldn't shut off. So aggravating! And of course, my thoughts were all baby related. With us finally moving forward in the baby making department, I've been going crazy! All the "what if's" and the "it could happen!" thoughts. But at the same time, trying so hard to not get my hopes up. Which, as I'm sure you can understand, is not that easy!

Today I feel kind of out of it. My head hurts a bit, and I feel a little tiny bit feverish. Looking forward to an early bedtime tonight!

As for TTC... CD5, day 3 of Femara, and next week I'll have an ultrasound to see if the medicine has worked at all. Fingers crossed! :)

- Honeybee

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Hi, my name is...

Okay, so this is obviously my first post. I'm Honeybee, and my husband of nearly 7 years is Seabee. I am a customer service rep/data entry guru who wishes she was a photographer. My husband is a Navy Seabee (hence the nickname). We have two dogs we love, but we long to become parents. Unfortunately our dream of being surprised by pregnancy has proven to be next to impossible, since I don't ovulate, and my husband's sperm are swimming through jello, apparently. So this is our journey through infertility. I hope that having other people to talk about this with will help us get through it all! We are brand new to all of it, so it's scary and overwhelming and I'm sure many of you can relate to the roller coaster ride we are strapped into and ready to ride.

Here's where we are right now... My husband and I are high school sweethearts. We took all the right precautions in high school... birth control and condoms. We didn't want any surprises! :) Once we married, we waited a year before throwing out our birth control. At that point we weren't trying, but we weren't not trying either. We figured God would bless us with a child when it was time. Fast forward 2 years and I am baby crazy, but my husband's deployment schedule made baby making hard, especially since I have such irregular cycles (anywhere from 28 days to 120 days). We moved to our current duty station a little over a year ago, and decided that since we were looking at 3 years with no deployments (fingers crossed!) we would start TTC for real. I knew my crazy cycle would make things complicated, so I bought a ton of ovulation tests and started using them everyday (since I knew the wackiness of it made it hard to pick just 2 or 3 days to test on) and after a few months of not getting any positive ovulation results my suspicions were confirmed and I made an appointment with my primary doctor to get a referral to a fertility specialist. After spending the winter months getting all of our testing done, we discovered that I am not ovulating on my own (which I already suspected), because I have poly cystic ovaries, and that my husband's semen is "too thick." Our doctor has prescribed Femara for me, and an IUI once I have a mature egg and a lining that is thick enough. Currently I am CD4 (after taking Provera for 5 days and starting my cycle after 11 days), and I am on day 2 of Femara.

Feeling very anxious but trying to remain hopeful that this will be the year we finally become parents.

- Honeybee