Tuesday, July 5, 2011

This time, baby, I'll be bulletproof...

This is a bullet post kind of day...

1. Time to finish the blog challenge... and it ends with a picture of yours truly. :) So this is me... just over a year ago, right before we left California and journeyed to Virginia. My hair is no longer blonde - I've gone back to being a brunette - and my hair was only pretending to be straight that day. :) haha...


2. A year ago today my dad joined the angels in heaven, after losing his battle with lung cancer. My husband and I were able to be with my dad and my mom and my brothers during my dad's last week on Earth, and I was by his side 24/7 while he was in hospice. My mom and I were at his side when he took his last breath, and I have never been more devastated. I wish I could say it's easier now, after a year, but I miss him more every single day.


3. IUI #1 has ended with a BFN. Yes, I am disappointed, but I know it's not the end for us, and so we'll be okay. :) Unfortunately we have to wait a month at least before we can do another IUI because my husband will be traveling back home and we really don't want to freeze his sperm - we'll just wait until there's no state separating us. I think the hardest part about the BFN was telling my husband. I had a feeling that it hadn't happened for us this time, but he was so hopeful that I felt like I was ruining all his dreams. Of course he is very understanding and supportive, and together we'll get through this. :)

We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope. - Martin Luther King, Jr.

- Honeybee

4 comments:

  1. I'm sorry for the BFN. I'm also sorry that the loss of your dad hasn't gotten much easier. I can't even imagine. Thinking of you...

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  2. I'm so sad about this post :( Except for your beautiful photo! Im sure your dad is up there working on the perfect baby to send down to you guys. Im so sorry this IUI didnt work :( Keep holding onto hope..it will happen...

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  3. I am sorry for you the loss of your dad and so sorry for your BFN. Keep your chin up!

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  4. So sorry for the loss of your dad. That first anniversary is hard. And a BFN on top of it...so sorry. Thinking of you and your husband...

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